The walls close around me
Sounds lowers into white noise
Before sudden stillness of silence follows
The air freezes in my lungs
My eyes cannot focus on anything
Not on myself nor what is in front of me
There is no smell distinguishable, but the overwhelming
Feeling of panic makes that thought disappear.
The heart squeezes as chills
Run down my spine.
Fingers clench, digging deeper and deeper
To the muscle underneath
Wrists pop before shaking in a desperate
Attempt to throw off the fear.
Knees buckle as stress build too much
Then smash to the ground beneath.
I try to raise again, but my ankles will not cooperate.
Instead they find a familiar joint to lock in place.
The spine caves and forms a curve
As hands reach out for a comforting support.
There is nothing to hold onto, but
The shivering crossed calves.
Sudden intake of breath begins to quicken
As realization takes hold in the mind.
“Why am I so scared? I was doing just fine!”
A mantra forms as words are whispered.
“Nothing happened to day! Nothing happened today!”
“Why can I not calm down?”
“Nothing happened today! Nothing happened today!”
“Please, make my fears go away…”
Rolling in Mind After Class 